Friends… the word by itself means so much… they form over years, bonded to us by those tiny threads of incidents and time shared …. One never knows when those “strangers” become your friends. There are times when these friends and their friendships define life for you.
But today I find myself questioning the strength of them… over time we loose a few along the way.. some just ending coz of loosing in touch and some ending due to other reasons.
I still sometimes look back at one, with a huge regret…. The decision to let go was mine, the relationship hurt too much. So with as much as dignity I could gather I let go…slowly, smoothly. That relationship was lovely while it lasted, but perhaps some friends are better let go…..even if they do take a part of u with them
Today, I think I am about to loose another one who matters….my heart feels heavy, I tell myself “I don’t care” but I think I do. As I think about what we have shared and been through I find myself overwhelmed. I wonder what changed.. subtly something has. May be I have!
I think I no longer take as much effort as I used to ……. “keeping in touch” seems to have lost its meaning on me. I used to keep in touch while I was in school, and now while I am working itz me again. To be fair… this person (X) is not bad either ..when I happen to slag X makes sure we are still going on. I have always considered X to be a boon, but lately I think a feeling of “being taken for granted” is overcoming my senses.
I am not sure if I am being true here.. but I need to sort things out in my mind and for this reason alone, I turn to my “blog” again. Sometimes written words lay the truth out more distinctly ………………………….
