A prayer

just finished watching the passion of the christ. Never has any movie moved me so deeply as this did. I thought it wouldn't have much effect on me as I am not of the faith. But I found tears rolling down my eyes involuntarily. I think that no one should have faced anything like that. And after facing so much when a person has it in him to ask for forgiveness from his detractors that alone makes him a great soul in my book. It doesn't matter wether I accept his teachings or not, but I still feel that respect for him.

I have always looked at history with speculation as history is usually the victors story. I believe in god .. the power beyond comprehension which dictates us all. I believe all gods are one and that is what ma and pa have taught us to believe. The difference lies in the way we human perceive them. The crux of all the teachings is essentially the same.

After seeing this movie my heart still bleeds for the innocent who fall in the path of righteousness. Tears still flow down my eyes as I write this........

I found myself praying to god that when and if time comes, let god always let me take the right path. When I am dying I want to die knowing that I have lived the life without having shamed anyone else, I hope I always have sense to distinguish between the right and the wrong.

right now I feel ashamed when I think of my moments of greed, lies and jealousy. All that I thought of at those times when I felt those things seem insignificant. How easily we make things which are not actually important to be very important. When I think of it, I know that the part of life which we lead is an illusion.

I don't know if I will ever be a good human being... but I do hope I will be. I hope I never forget my parents who have done so much for me when they age, at the same time I pray to lord to give me strength and determination to do so for "his" as well. I hope I accept "his" as "mine" and treat them as I would mine.

I now I will make mistakes, I know I will be a fool. But I pray that I never knowingly hurt anyone. Please remind me of this prayer whenever I reach crossroads of life, or whenever I stumble on this long path of life. I pray with all my heart and I hope not to forget this prayer of mine.

Florida trip!

Sunny days, parties, drinking, open sea and amazing time- for me all of them will forever remind me of Florida. Yeah, yeah I admit I did have a great time. All my fears, all my worries were rather unfounded and to my surprise I never did think even once about “I hope they think he is lucky”. I forgot everything and just basked in his company.

Oh yeah u betcha I had fun. A rental near the beach was helpful distraction. I am totally burnt, and the tan may take forever to go away (BTW I don’t like having a tan). But I had a great time and I also realized I am a very beach person!! Leave me in water and I could be there for ages. Of course having a hubby who piggy-backs me and tries to catch my legs in water is a great accessory to have in sea. Oh what I would not give to have a ocean view house!!

We went to Universal studios (The Disney world unfortunately was voted by all the guys to be too girlie). But I enjoyed that as well. My favorite was of course Shrek 4D show. I love the movie (both the parts) and have seen them innumerable times. So when I took snaps with the Donkey I was absolutely thrilled to bits. (Oh! I know itz kiddish but what the heck… I enjoy being kid sometimes)

This weekend has US opens on our schedule and we will be off seeing the semi-finals live with a couple of friends. And I just can’t wait for thrusday…my best friend in the whole world is coming for a visit and I am all set to act like a NYC guide (Groan once more.. but for her anything).

Looking forward to more fun …. But have to start looking for a job soon (A big thing on my “TO DO” list) …. More later…………………..