A prayer

just finished watching the passion of the christ. Never has any movie moved me so deeply as this did. I thought it wouldn't have much effect on me as I am not of the faith. But I found tears rolling down my eyes involuntarily. I think that no one should have faced anything like that. And after facing so much when a person has it in him to ask for forgiveness from his detractors that alone makes him a great soul in my book. It doesn't matter wether I accept his teachings or not, but I still feel that respect for him.

I have always looked at history with speculation as history is usually the victors story. I believe in god .. the power beyond comprehension which dictates us all. I believe all gods are one and that is what ma and pa have taught us to believe. The difference lies in the way we human perceive them. The crux of all the teachings is essentially the same.

After seeing this movie my heart still bleeds for the innocent who fall in the path of righteousness. Tears still flow down my eyes as I write this........

I found myself praying to god that when and if time comes, let god always let me take the right path. When I am dying I want to die knowing that I have lived the life without having shamed anyone else, I hope I always have sense to distinguish between the right and the wrong.

right now I feel ashamed when I think of my moments of greed, lies and jealousy. All that I thought of at those times when I felt those things seem insignificant. How easily we make things which are not actually important to be very important. When I think of it, I know that the part of life which we lead is an illusion.

I don't know if I will ever be a good human being... but I do hope I will be. I hope I never forget my parents who have done so much for me when they age, at the same time I pray to lord to give me strength and determination to do so for "his" as well. I hope I accept "his" as "mine" and treat them as I would mine.

I now I will make mistakes, I know I will be a fool. But I pray that I never knowingly hurt anyone. Please remind me of this prayer whenever I reach crossroads of life, or whenever I stumble on this long path of life. I pray with all my heart and I hope not to forget this prayer of mine.